Stuart's Father Left us on a Tuesday...

It was today - like any other day - that I finally made up my mind. I will go back to school by this summer. My best friend has gone back to school - and she's loving it.
She said directly "I feel like I'm finally not just standing on the side of my life, this time I'm actually moving forward."
To which I hugged her and said with all sincerity "I want you to know that I am literally jealous of you."
She nodded not seeming to find this an odd thing to say to a friend, instead she replied "When you were going to go back to school I was jealous of you. So I understand."

I like that about the friends I have made, there are very few hang-ups about honesty, we don't sit around and gossip like high school girls (which is sincerely not something I did a lot of in high school either), these people make me laugh until I cry.

When my close friend William begins on a tirade that people think is hilarious he doesn't stop, instead he continues with it until it gets old and people start developing ADD or he has lost his momentum.
On this one particular day we were all lying around in his tiny room. There were probably 5 of us packed into this small space. He began making up this story about how his first name was "F*king William" and how people would call for him by this name. I was laughing so hard my body hurt. I kept begging him to stop but he wouldn't, so I began crawling towards the door, collapsing intermittently from laughter. When I reached the door I extended my arms and fingers to their fullest length and turned the handle with weak arms - I burst through the door and heaved myself into deep relief. This is the kind of friendship that makes me soar!

Anyways - tangents aside - I will go back to school. I have a couple of cities in mind, and one online school. We'll see - cross your fingers boss! I'm going to get started on my applications next week!

New Beginnings

It's important for me to be bold. By nature I'm a fairly meek person - probably like most individuals, I carry around a sense of uncertainty and insecurity. There are those little battles you fight with yourself every day - small on the surface but mounted together they can create quite overwhelming hurdles. Most people I encounter see the confident and strong woman - which I'm remarkably thankful for.

I mention being bold because I feel that I'm at the perfect crossroads of my life right now - I'm in a position where I am obligated to make decisions. Nearly six years ago I left the island to pursue a life that I had dreamed of for ... well, forever. Now it's time to seek after that woman. I graduated college, I went through my phases that most liberal arts college women go through, but now it's time for me to seek after a new part of myself. To blossom.

I made a promise to myself on my 24th birthday that by the time I turned 25 I would have begun to accomplish things on my life goals list, I would be headed in a direction that I would be proud of. So that's what this is, this is my promise, my beginning.

Starting this blog from its core I am going to document steps, whether forward or backward. Mark moments of complete and utter emotion. I will be using this blog to release myself from my own shell of secrets.
So - I'm ready if you are!

Love Always,
Dara